Charlie
Being one of the elite I understand how you feel at times! Charlie sometimes we take it way too seriously but the guys on the circuit are in the most part a great bunch of guys who no matter your skill level will laugh, joke and advise you when they can.
Some of the top shooters practice for several hours a week to achieve their scores and I respect that I personally don't which is why I get crap scores but just enjoy the shoot.
Don't give up.
Regards
No Hope
P.S. Steb is a snob hehehe but he and Justin helped me massively at my first AA shoot telling me everything was 25yds.