A totally self centred bleat, for which I apologise.

We came back from a wonderful trip to Asia full of new perspective and realising how easy our lives are in comparison with others, I was even pledging to stop moaning about work.

Firstly a number of family commitments ruled me out of any shooting for a while- ok hardly a world stopper.
Then a dear friend died after what appeared to be successful surgery for cancer( the funeral this w/e means I'll miss the SIHFT again, but that is totally selfish of me)

Then I came down yesterday morning to find our beloved, seemingly fit as a fiddle, labrador unconcious on the floor. Despite an emergency trip to the vet he didn't make it. He was such a character and full of beans, the house feels like someone has ripped the soul out of it. It is heartbreaking to see the collie he grew up with searching for him and then looking at me.

God I feel awful.

Sorry, needed to get it off my chest

Richard