As you mentioned jealousy not me its quite clear you feel it , but you're only human (again a word used very lightly)....
I would genuinely like to see you doing well , but lets face it , it hasn't happened yet and very much doubt it will .... after all everyone knows you cant make chicken soup, out of chicken shit .
I'd like to feel sorry for you mate , i really would ..... but i don't give a flying f*** lol